I feel I should point out to you guys that narrative convention dictates that the exciting parts are supposed to be saved until the end. I know, I know, you hate it and you have said so but... I'm just saying. I find your need for immediate gratification a little unseemly.
The ultrasound at the OB's office was "inconclusive" as the World's Oldest Ultrasound Machine (TM) was able to see "something" in the gestational sac and "probably" a heartbeat but nothing was measurable. One, by the way. Just the one. So I got shipped off to a radiologist whose sonographic equipment actually employs this new electronic technology everyone is talking about (Essay Question: Do you think the field of obstetrics will ever fully replace hamster power? Discuss) Do you want to know how happy I was with the inconclusivity and the added delay? DO YOU?
The radiologist's sleek and modern ultrasound machine found the "tiny" gestational sac and then was able to find the fetal pole (measuring two days behind dates, thank you very much, always a pleasure- I know that these things are +/- 5 days or whatever but is it too much to ask for me to have an embryo measuring big JUST ONCE?? And before you point to Patrick I should tell you that I spent the entire first trimester with him in a state of catatonic terror so I have no recollection of how he originally measured, thus the lack of possible reassurance) and a heartbeat. Blink blink blink. We could see it but she had the hardest time measuring it and once she finally did she noted it was "slow" (107 bpm.)
So if we take all of these quotes and line them up we have: "inconclusive" "something" "probably" "tiny" "slow." Is it any wonder that despite the ostensibly celebratory nature of the ultrasound findings I am still feeling shaky and uncertain? Steve and I left the radiologists' office and said nothing for a few moments. Then Steve said, "Is it me or was that EXACTLY how the last three pregnancies started?"
Ummm, pretty much.
So I am not reassured. However, I am not in shrieking misery either. I am merely tentative.
On an unrelated note, thank you so much for all the color suggestions. I am going to try to amass as many of your recommendations as I can find this afternoon. I'll let you know what we decide (if we decide- maybe leaving the taped drywall would look industrial and edgy?)
Updated: I just got off the phone with my nurse at the Shade of Grove and I feel a gazillion times better. No, TWO gazillion. The nurse said that measuring two days off is absolutely fine and they see it all the time. Also, she said that the heartbeat was absolutely appropriate for the dates. She suggested that the local people are probably not used to seeing patients this early and that I should not to pay too much attention to them. Perfect. That was the word she used: she said things look "perfect". Whether this is true or not is beside the point- I FEEL better.
And she ordered another ultrasound for one week from today.